For years I have been an enormous Michael Jackson fan. Not the fanatical variety that dressed up like him and tried to emulate his every move, but I've been in awe of his musical talents from nearly as far back as I can remember. I've been around the block long enough to have watched him perform with his big brothers, ironically (in retrospect) seeming so much older than his years. At my first job as a summer camp counselor for 7, 8 and 9 year old kids at my church, the kids put on a talent show at the end. The girls performed Stop! In the Name of Love and the boys, led by this little guy who was a fantastic dancer, performed Dancing Machine. I remember hearing songs from Off the Wall the first time around and knowing immediately that there was a new sheriff in town. I expected him to become a big movie star after The Wiz but it turned out to be a one shot deal. Along with everyone else I recognized while watching Motown 25 that he was ready to explode to the next level. I remember anticipating the hyped debuts of videos such as Thriller and Remember the Time that actually turned out even cooler than we imagined they would be. In college I lied to a girl or two I was trying to impress, claiming to be one of the background dancers in Michael Jackson's video for Bad. I named one of my short stories after an MJ song (You've been hit by, you've been struck by...). If not quite a stan, I was definitely a Michael Jackson all caps FAN.
As Jackson got older he definitely got weirder. Stories about him grew increasingly disturbing. The odd changes to his appearance actually turned out to be useful distractions from odder, not particularly low whispers about his personal life. I remember feeling relieved when he married Lisa Marie Pressley. Maybe, in spite of some eccentricities, he was basically a normal guy after all. People try to take advantage of absurdly wealthy celebrities by making up salacious stories and suing them as a get rich quick scheme all the time. Michael Jackson was quirky because of an abnormal childhood, but nothing more sinister than that. I tried to believe this and was largely successful at convincing myself.
I was rocked when he died as evidenced when I wrote One Glove-One Love: Michael Jackson tribute and Michael Jackson Memorial Service. I knew there would never be another like him. Although I didn't consider him to be a music genius on the level of Miles Davis or Prince, Michael was certainly the ultimate entertainer. To make a proper comparison, rather than choosing another singer it probably makes more sense to compare him to Harry Houdini or Ringling Brothers and Barnum & Bailey Circus. Game changers!
Last night I watched the documentary Leaving Neverland. I've officially seen and heard enough. I can no longer see Michael Jackson as innocent until proven guilty. Now it's the other way around. At least I still have Janet...and Tito.
Get your Michael Jackson binge listening on while you still have time...— Travon Free (@Travon) March 4, 2019
Even the Church of Dr. King can't handle it!#LeavingNeverland https://t.co/BgLplBIoLG— Daniel Raza (@S_DannyRaza) March 4, 2019
This Leaving Neverland documentary is sickening. Primarily wtf is the matter with this guy's parents? Father at least had the sense to stay away from this show but Mom is cheerfully on camera acting beyond clueless.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
I would eventually learn why there was no appearance by the fathers in documentary. Not a whole lot of happy in these stories.
#LeavingNeverland - Either MJ was a monster or these people are really f'd up for making up such horrible stories. But they make the parents look just as bad for incredible negligence as they make Michael Jackson out to be a predator. How can no anger be aimed at their parents?— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
Sure seems that MJ groomed particular types of families who were easiest to manipulate. Not only overwhelmed by his stardom but also hopeful to achieve their own stardom with Jackson's help. I also think MJ maintained relationships with kids, esp. famous 1's, that weren't sexual— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
Macaulay Culkin, Emmanuel Lewis, Corey Feldman are credible when claiming relationships w/ Michael Jackson weren't sexual because they're likely telling the truth. I used to think if MJ was into boys he'd just pay for sex trafficking. But these families basically acted like pimps— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
Yes there was a childlike quality to Michael Jackson,Michael Jackson is not the 1st person to have his "childhood stolen". Whether it's due to child stardom or far less glamorous reasons, there are quite a few people who missed out on traditional childhoods. Most don't compensate as adults by hanging out with kids all the time.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
but to what degree was it a lure?
But you can be strange without being a pedophile. Was MJ both? I'd like to believe he wasn't but more than being a stan, I'm a realist.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
One thing made clear to me from social media regarding high profile criminal cases of various natures is that people pick a side early on. Based on desired outcome they choose what evidence sways them & what to dismiss in order to to support pre-reached conclusions.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
If you're sympathetic to the accuser for whatever reason, it won't matter to you that case against the accused isn't ironclad. You'll accept the accusations without requiring hard proof. The accused person's denials will fall on deaf ears.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
Conversely if you're sympathetic to the person accused of wrong doing, no amount of circumstantial evidence will be enough to convince you they're guilty. You'll grasp any straw that points to possible innocence. Conspiracy theories will seem quite reasonable even if far fetched.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
In the end you may never know what actually went down with 100% certainty. Your guesses/assumptions will be right some of the time and wrong some of the time. But in your mind you'll always be right and that's what counts.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
Sometimes you just know something in your gut. This isn't true knowledge. It's belief. It's conviction. But it really really feels like knowing what is/isn't true. So we go with it.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
The smoothest criminals are those who excel at choosing perfect victims. This keeps them from being caught/accused for a long time, & when day of reckoning finally does arrive the accusations come from flawed sources that are easy to dismiss. Powerful people are tough to topple.— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 4, 2019
I am a therapist that works with survivors. If the abuser is a loved one (I.e., parent, sibling, etc) often the loss of the relationship to the abuser is as traumatic as the abuse itself. It can take a long time for a victim to come to terms with such a loss.— J Axman (@jeffluvsmetal) March 4, 2019
Even if you take out the matter of the sexual molestation (which I believe happened) just the psychological damage MJ did to these boys by fostering a fantastical relationship with them and then coldly cutting it off is unconscionable. Their parents failed these boys as well.— J Axman (@jeffluvsmetal) March 4, 2019
I don’t know if what happened to him was at the hands of Michael Jackson, but that statement rings very true to me, as a survivor. It seems normal because it’s what you know until you mention it to someone “normal” and they are horrified :/ it’s a shitty feeling.— Jᴇɴɴɪғᴇʀ (@oyofmidmidworld) March 4, 2019
If you're not able to stomach watching the documentary (you certainly wouldn't be alone) but you are interested in this subject, I recommend reading this BuzzFeed article at minimum.
Some other stuff I found (while looking for a picture or two to accompany this post) to be taken with as large a grain of salt as you wish:
MJ and Boys; NY Post article; National Enquirer article
Some radio stations across the world are taking the allegations made against Michael Jackson in the #LeavingNeverland documentary pretty seriously.
— theGrio.com (@theGrio) March 7, 2019
His music has been pulled from several radio stations.https://t.co/16J4SaOgLU
A statue of Michael Jackson has been removed from Britain's National Football Museum in the wake of fresh allegations of sexual abuse that continue to surround the pop superstar's legacy https://t.co/CWPcy2hsQJ pic.twitter.com/GHxIjgaOmb
— CNN (@CNN) March 7, 2019
As I head back to Los Angeles, I want to thank UK media for giving me the opportunity to be a voice for my uncle Michael.
— Taj Jackson (@tajjackson3) March 7, 2019
To all the MJ fans worldwide, you have been truly amazing.
While they have stories...we have the truth.
The facts don’t lie, people do.
The useful thing about my ability to separate art from artist at least 98% of the time is I don't have to agonize when a fave turns out to be f'd up. Not that I go out of my way to financially support them, but I wage no hard core boycott either. A bop is a bop so dance on.
— Roy L. Pickering Jr. (@AuthorofPatches) March 6, 2019