PARMESAN CHEESE
By Roy L. Pickering Jr.
"You
want some Parmesan cheese, man?"
These words
welcome me back to the world of consciousness.
Each of my senses is being assailed.
Nerve endings from head to toe throb with pain. A marching band strikes up a show tune, every
member playing my ear drums. The light
of a thousand suns pries open my protesting eyes. My saliva is at least eighty proof, my
stomach doing somersaults. And a
horrific smell engulfs me - the divine intermingling of a backed up urinal, a
gallon of sweat, stale beer, morning breath, and cheese.
A man
hovers overhead, peering into my face, hand held out with the aforementioned
cheese. He is unwashed, unshaven,
wearing tattered rags that would make the skin of a rhino crawl.
"Where
am I?"
"You're
in my alley. You want this cheese?"
My eyes are
growing accustomed to the light. He
wasn't lying. This is definitely an alley.
I put my brain on rewind to recall what turn of events placed me here.
I went out
drinking last night. Why didn't my
friends see to it that I got home safely?
Because I was alone. Why was I
... Oh yeah, now I remember. I'm in mourning. My girlfriend dumped me. Why would Nicki do that? We had a great thing going. We were ...
My memory is returning with a vengeance.
She found out that I slept with her best friend. Or did she find out I slept with her
sister? No matter. I got busted doing something with
somebody. Now I'm depressed all over
again.
I try to
stand but a wave of pain keeps me horizontal.
My ribs are sore. My jaw isn't
feeling so hot either. Was I mugged? No, that’s not it. I was talking to a redhead, making pretty
good progress. One problem though. She was the bouncer's girlfriend. Suddenly I'm ricocheting off walls, the
floor, the ceiling. I got the feeling
the redhead was amused. She probably
does this sort of thing regularly, the psycho.
Makes me glad to have someone like Nicki. Oh yeah, I forgot.
"You
got the time?" I ask, nagged by suspicion that I'm supposed to be
somewhere, though I cannot recall where or why at the moment.
"No. I have Parmesan cheese. You want any?"
"How
about some tequila?" That's what I
was drinking last night. Aspirin will be
of little use. No hangover this intense
can be combated with non-prescription medication. A hair of the dog is what I need.
"Poco
loved Parmesan cheese."
My
wedding! I'm supposed to be at the
church by twelve o'clock. Nicki and I
are getting married. At least that was
the plan before I screwed up.
"Nobody
loved Parmesan cheese like Poco."
My folks
are going to flip out. My father may
even cut me off financially. He’s
threatened to often enough, but I’ve always placated him by promising to get my
act together. That might not be good
enough this time. If not, I can say
goodbye to my cushy job in the family business, my penthouse apartment
overlooking Central Park, my Jaguar, my floor seats at the Garden
where I cheer on the Knicks a few feet over from Spike Lee.
"He
could eat a whole can of the stuff in ten seconds."
As if I
don’t have enough problems, this rancid, raving lunatic is going on about how
much someone named Poco loved Parmesan cheese.
Maybe I can get Nicki back. I’m
willing to grovel. Women like her don't
come around every day, a fact my father reminds me of constantly.
A filthy
blanket is draped over me. I push it
off. My beautiful cashmere coat has
spent the night soaking in booze and vomit.
The dry cleaner won't be able to do anything with this. How bad can things possibly ..."
My
wallet! I had over seven hundred dollars
on me. I spent the night lying comatose
in this alley. There's not a chance in
... It’s still here. But what about the money? It's here too. My credit cards as well.
"You
can have it if you want. Go ahead, take
it."
The bum is
offering me a can of Parmesan cheese.
Why didn't he rob me? Maybe he's
retarded or something.
"Is
this your blanket?"
"Yes
it is. It was cold last night. Those men threw you out here soaking wet and beaten
up."
"So
you loaned me your blanket? You took
care of me?"
"Sure. You seem like a nice man. I think Poco would have liked you."
"Poco?"
"Poco
was my dog. He died last night."
Maybe
there's still time to sweet talk Nicki.
I can smooth things over with jewelry, or perhaps extend our honeymoon
another month. As pissed as she was, I
know how much she was looking forward to this day. Barnum & Bailey couldn't have put
together as big a show as our planned wedding, and she gets to be the
star. If I move quickly enough I can
... This crazy man is crying. He's crying over his dog Poco.
"He
was a great dog. He loved Parmesan
cheese."
I used to
have a dog when I was a kid. Sparky was
a great companion, and thanks to him I was never lonely growing up as an only
child in a huge house. My dad was always
somewhere else doing whatever had to be done to get richer by the day. My mother was either off shopping in ritzy
boutiques, having lunch with friends, or doing charity work for obscure
projects like saving endangered species of butterfly. It was made clear that I was mostly
a nuisance to them. Nothing personal,
but children demand a certain amount of selfless devotion, and that is what
they felt nannies and maids were for.
They made certain I wore the finest clothes, played with the fanciest
toys, and attended the best schools. But
they didn't have much attention to spare.
Sparky passed on while I was in college. That was
probably the most upset I’ve ever been in my life, including last night. Sure, I did the traditional depressed guy
routine after Nicki dumped me. But I was
mostly just mad at myself for blowing such a sweet deal. Nicki has the looks of a runway model, speaks
five languages, and her dad's almost as loaded as mine. That's a pretty tough hand to beat.
"I
hope they have plenty of Parmesan up in heaven."
It doesn't
matter though. I don't love Nicki any
more than she loves me. Love can be
stumbled upon, disregarded, cherished, discarded, trumpeted or muted. But it cannot be arranged. Otherwise why would I be here instead of
putting on a tux in preparation for wedded bliss with a woman who is all I'm
supposed to want?
Perhaps I
did love once, and knew what I wanted, what real happiness is. The time was brief, and such brevity is
probably what keeps it imprinted on my brain.
Maybe if it had not ended so abruptly, and against my will, I would be
able to accept the loss. But my will was
just an extension of what my parents chose it to be, and my one possibly true
love did not have sufficient fortune or come from the right class of
people. My feelings for Paula, whatever
name applies to them, were not frivolous enough to be tolerated. So I was given an ultimatum.
Sabotaging the marriage my parents carefully set up will cause a firestorm.
Technically our wedding was supposed to unite two people in love. But in reality it was to be the merging of
two empires. My indiscriminate behavior
will be seen as another act of unoriginal defiance. The way I see it though, what I possibly
want, who I may or may not love, has to count for something.
"I
think Poco would have liked you. Anyway,
you look like you can take care of yourself now, so I'll be going."
"Where
to?" Why did I ask him that? What do I care? He points to a garbage bag. I don't need to ask what's in it.
"To
the city dump. Poco deserves to be
buried proper. I'll dig him a hole with
my hands if I have to. He would have
done the same for me if I went first.
You want to come?"
Not
bothering to wait for an answer, the bum slings the bag over his shoulder and
walks away. There is an inexplicable
aura of dignity about him as I watch him exit his brief stay in my existence. I manage to rise in spite of protests from various aching body parts and stagger out
of the alley.
A couple walks by and I
ask them what time it is. The look in
the man's eyes reminds me of a newly neutered pet. Primeval urges to conquer and spread his seed have been domesticated out of him. He is worn on his woman's arm like a fashionable purse. It's only ten o'clock. There's still time. I know I can earn Nicki's forgiveness.
Oh what the
hell. "Hey, wait up." I suddenly have a craving for Parmesan
cheese.
And now for some book reviews...
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My rating:
4 of 5 stars
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Labyrinth by
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My rating:
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My rating:
5 of 5 stars
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My rating:
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